to him :)

happy 1 year 4months anniversary , i know this may sound cliche but i want to tell you that i really love u :) yaps yaps , all this while i have been very very happy with you, u made me smile , stood by my side when i was crying my heart out about childish things , which makes me laugh sometimes :) but u still stood there even though i sounded so annoying haha you were the only one who believed i was a no clumsy person and trust me to drive your manual car ,even though my license were still hot from the oven that time eheh :)
and thank you for being the sweetest bf ive ever known , buying me singa just the same as in the papadom movie and being all sweet by giving me gifts that ive never thought of u giving me hehe , u definitely surprised me :)
and thank you for thinking i was the cutest girl even though i was dressing up like a rempit or had my ugly black tudung on hahaha thanks baby :)i really hope this relationship will last , last but not least i miss u , lama x jumpa u :( hehe




Baby, I'm yours (baby, I'm yours)
And I'll be yours (yours) until the stars fall from the sky,
Yours (yours) until the rivers all run dry
In other words, until I die

Baby, I'm yours (baby, I'm yours)
And I'll be yours (yours) until the sun no longer shines,
Yours (yours) until the poets run out of rhyme
In other words, until the end of time

I'm gonna stay right here by your side,
Do my best to keep you satisfied
Nothin' in the world can drive me away
'Cause every day, you'll hear me say

Baby, I'm yours (baby, I'm yours)
And I'll be yours (yours) until two and two is three,
Yours (yours) until the mountains crumble to the sea
In other words, until eternity

Baby, I'm yours
'Til the stars fall from the sky
Baby, I'm yours
'Til the rivers all run dry
Baby, I'm yours
'Til the poets run out of rhyme

thank you part 2

ok , the things that has happened to our relationship wasn't just because of the incident happened in the room but it was also because of the other things has happened in the past yang i dah malas nk bring up , all i know and i want to make it clear to you about the incident in the room. ok here's the thing, the time about the whole class picking which day for our class, i was being selfish k? there you go ,that's the truth. i think everyone should have their individual rights to pick which date suits their schedule? dont you think? and that point of time , monday was just right for me k? and unfortunately it wasnt for you guys and what am i suppose to do about it right ? nothing ....and again unfortunately for you guys the whole class will rather have the class on friday ,if im not mistaken. after that, i do felt bad about the whole thing because i wasnt really on your side so the stupid mind of mine thought it would be nice to say sorry to you guys..

after coming back from dinner , i came to you and the others who was at the living room , and said out loud that i wanted to say something about the incident in the class , but unfortunately for me , you guys didnt even care about wat i said and ignored me as if i my say wasnt important? yeah i get it , im a nobody in the group and i dont mind being that way :) seriously , but please dont relate this matter and say to the others that meeza walked away because she thought she wasnt important, please dont because that's just BS , thank you.

from that moment on, i knew i could not take it anymore that's why i walked away from you guys and try to have new friends and i dont think that's wrong because i know when i walked off i didnt tell anyone about what happened and only 3 person knew what happened but they wouldnt tell anyone , because i trust them. when people asked me what happened i didnt spill out anything pun , and whatever you heard me saying about uguys yang memburukkan korang , it wasnt me it was someone inside your group , you know them better , all i can say is that dont trust them sangat , you think they're so saint but actually they're just devils in disguise. my advice to you dont tell them things you should not tell because in the end ,that thing will go on and on inside the group and bring the story out to the others k.

from what has happened , i da tak kesah dah what people say about me , cause i know nobody's perfect and fyi i dah tak ambik hati wat happened and i forgive you and your gang for what has happened , and here also i would like to say im sorry for the things yang i dah ckp sampai korang ambik hati ...im sorry straight from my heart. do tell the others that im sorry k , thank you ..

i hope this thing would not prolong anymore cause i think i have had enough , im happy now and if this thing backfires me again then its ok let me learn, im ready to face my own consequences ....uguys lead your life and let me lead mine too k:)
no more hard feelings after this cause i really hope living in puncak will change everything.

p/s: im sorry for telling what happened , biar orang nk kata apa , no matter how much we please people , they will still talk about you , they will never shut the hell up :)

thank you :)

ok now, i know im not the most baik-est person on earth , but hello ..dont say as if im the only one who's in the wrong and you're not? pleaseee la , i dont want to mention the main thing because it will be an embarrassment to you but tak guna i think if you're saying it just to sedapkan the guilty heart of yours, dont say as if everything that has happened was my fault , please and thank you :) news flash for you ,all the things that has happened was actually your fault because you could not shut your mouth...i trusted you , you swore you wouldn't tell anyone but i guess , all your sumpah and all isnt worth a thing? i have had enough of u and all your colonies la people..i think u better take "good " care of your precious little mouth because one day im afraid it might cause u harm , takot satu hari orang sepak u jer , that's why im warning you because " im a good friend" am i not? ok enough said about "you" , the next thing im going to say is about your friend , the friend of yours ni has similar characteristic as you haha tahniah ! korang kawan sejati hehe :D
ok back to the story , then your friend ni has a favourite tag line ...sape rapat ngan dia , dia taula dia punya tag line ...pleasee everytime i hear that line , it makes me sick , you're not helping your friends la idiot! you're actually making them hate each other , you have any bad stories then dont tell let them know by themselves , cant u be someone with a good heart ? haihhh...
the next thing im going to say is about my style and yada yada....you usually dont realize the thing that you do until someone tells u ...ok to be honest u just dont like someone who's not in the same style as you are...for instance, making a decision on something, the whole group have a decision on something and this one particular person dont think that the dicision they're making is convenient for others ( beside the whole group) , then they start to curse and all that shit , just because of that , you will put on your sour face and cry over a stupid thing like that , "others" will start to gather and saying comforting words and blah blah , and all will start to hate the other group la apa la ...bosan , the same old story again and again...then kononnye korang have your own mind and all that stuff ? klau otak tu betul takpe :) but the thing is have you ever thought of this? kenapa ramai orang , i mean RAMAI orang dont like you but only some people like u?have u ever thought of it? maybe just maybe , you guys are in the wrong track?im sorry to say this but you guys are still in the miley cyrus world ahhah tak faham sudah , i je yang faham haha
you have made me cried and made me feel like im no good for anyone,thank you sooooo much :) i will also like to thank the people who have helped me go through all this , you know who you are :) i love you guys and YOU , and thank you for showing me there are more out there then what's infront of you :) thank you...

i love them :)

during my finals, ma pa shasha n abang ( my bro) went to korea...unfortunatly they left me here in malaysia with a reason " adek tgh final nnt nnt ma bawak k? "
haihhh i dont think that's real reason i think im adopted , that's why they didnt want to bring me poor meeza -_-'
but lucky this stupid thoughts vanished from my mind as all these things were given to me from them lepas balik korea:


this is from ma :)
and this is from sha , the boots and the necklace as a sisterhood thingy hahah poyo gle ayat dia hehe




in the end , i think im not adopted after all haahahahah

sakit perot , no sakit perot then sakit perot

last paper before my final break starts was microbiology, damn! it was hard , before entering the hall i was sick to my stomach n could feel the vomit in my mouth , even though it sound so disgusting but yeah that how i felt that day. went in and then looked at the questions then "haihhhh biler la paper ni nak habis?" the paper was hard for me i dont know about the others but yeah it was hard...as time goes by , it was already 11 am then yeah babeyh! finals is over !no more sakit perot then no more pressure then all of the sudden all those hopes n dreams shattered apart as kiki told me that :

ki: yang kiter balik after ni k?
me: owh ok u dah pack dah kan?
ki: yap dah but td ma call tanya biler nk balik then i told her yang i balik ngan kawan , then dia kata kawan ke makwe?heehe (he smiled ). then ma kata la asal tak ckp awal ma tak masak apa semua...
me:urm? ( confused face)
ki: kiter mum lunch kat umah tau?
me: ah??????? omg datang dah sakit perot ...taknk la i kn nk cepat hehe
ki: no no no , u kena makan gak , padan muka u , feel wat i felt masa i g umah u hahah ( with his evil laugh n smile)

omg...im going to meet his mom, that's just so scary dont u think? from wat i heard she really strict? driving from the faculty back to college, my mind wasnt really there , so many things on my head , i can feel my tummy ache...when we stopped at a petrol station ki went out to pay n fill up the tank , so i turned back n asked kak aida n kak rose wat am i suppose to do?

kak aida: mak dia old skewl ke modern ?
me : urm old skewl kot?
kak aida: hah then jgn panggil auntie tau panggil makcik
me: hahah
kak rose: meeza pakai bju kurung je la
me: no way! takmau la nnt zaki ejek meeza takmau

then all of a sudden ki went in the car then there was a moment of silence...he asked why but all of us kept quiet n just turned on the engine and terus back to college...when i went back to the room k. aida and k.rose helped me alot in finding clothes , appropriate clothes yer rakan rakan , not to tight , not too busty not to short ....aiyoooo 15 minutes of finding clothes made feel like 'can i not go?' haihhh
then afterwards after getting ready and all , ki drove the car back to seremban , after unloading his things back to the house, i met his mom for the first time , how scared i was unimaginable ...takot gle kot , met everyone in his family , obviusly everyone was at home because it was a sunday...haihhh...then his mom asked me have lunch and i had lunch with the rest of the family..then his mom asked me "makan la nonah ni " i put on my i wonder face and asked ki wat is a nonah?" i tried searching on the table to find a food that matches with nonah tp tak jumpa pun? rupa rupanye nonah = nenes....malu tak??? i was so embarassed tau ....ki just laughed n it wasnt funny ....! dont ya think? -_-"

then basically it was embarassing while eating with them ki n abang boy (ki's bro) ayik drop i jer.......malu giler , they tuduh me of eating the rice sampai nasi habis...jahat gle poor meeza ....haihh then after makan n chatting for awhile kiter orang pun gerak balik rumah....ki had fun i can tell from his satisfied face...xmau kawan u dah!

but basically ki's family is just great n i would like to know them better if i have the chance ewahhh! heheheh

adibah si klakar!

dat morning whch was almost near to 11 smthing someone texted me saying " i kat pasar jo ni teman nenek i beli daging"

then i quickly called her , obviously who loves her grandmama more than dibah? ahha she texted me , as i mentioned earlier , i called her back and was so excited to meet her cause she has been busy as her finals were much earlier than our in uitm , so dia dah habis dah so not ONLY got the chance to meet her :)

then after calling her she said ok , to pick me up n ki together :) then when we went to the car , there was this old lady with her face mask on, i wondered who was this old lady? it was baba! ahhaha obviously adibah's grandmama, she scanned my dressing with her glasses on maybe she didnt like it for girl's with tudung to wear skinny jeans as they are very tight at "you know where place" ehhe
then we got into the car and dibah was driving her driving was okla , but all of us shouted one time cause dbah didnt stop at a round about bayang kan? hahaha
then drop baba off at her house and went to ain's place to pick her up plak , after reaching her place ain wasnt ready yet , so auntie dgn baik hatinye asked us to get inside and have a drink , someone didnt come in just for a drink but came in for kuih raya , air , n kurma -_-" haih hahahhaa sorry !
then after waited for almost 15 minutes , ain was ready , boobies hugs and all n then ain's mom said " why not have lunch at home? nak?" all of us looked at each other and ain made the move, " takpela ma hehe"
then jeng jeng came auntie's ketula ahhah
we went out then dibah asked where do we want to go , so i suggested ou then okla she asked ki to drive cause dia tak berani , ou bnyk kete, okla nk start the car , the car didnt even make a sound pun ......all of us tried to ignite it but bohooooo no luck! we tried pushing the car and start it but dia ni degil juugak! me n ki really like the car bmw lama kot sape xske tp sbb dia degil terus turn me off ahaha
the dibah had to call yak! how comel is the name ? yak in sarawak if im not mistaken it means uncle , he came to the rescue and bawak a persona for us to drive , so baik or him :) then we went to pick anis lak , and had our lunch at restroran kanna ! the way the waiters treated us was fabulous , ehhe u imagine 4 waiters coming to our table serving different food to us, and the special thing about the restraunt is that the pinggan is a banana leaf n think to them it sooooooo special sampai harga pun mak aih mahal gle kot , u noe one plain rice with no vege is rm2 and with vege is rm 4 ! gle x? haihhhh but its worth it , at least dapat jugak jumpa the long lot friends even though the group was not that complete , its ok ada lagi next time kan ? :)

oh wait ? where's the ship?

friendship? is there such ship that would not let u sink alone and will litarelly sink with u? all i have to say is one word! BS.....haihhhh this thing hasnt come around for quiet awhile , i was very very happy before this , with my friends and all , they're very different ? i think? their mind set is not like theirs? im not degrading anyone , but whenever we have any disagreement or dislikes we would say it for only once which in other words kiter orang mengumpat and not letting the flaws of the person yg kena kutuk come in between our frindship...we just let it be , let by gones be by gones....but here its different , when u accidently or mmg sengaja hurt someone ( dah mmg attitude u camtu) u get to stay in the bad book :) isnt that nice? what happened to being forgive and forget ? or maybe yes ive hurt your feelings but all u should know sometimes my jokes are just jokes and they dont mean a thing...im used to being like that in so , you have to deal with it...yes u may say that what im saying is unfair...

why must u guys follow my style?
why cant i understand poeple's feeling?
and all that ?

but in the end, it goes the same ? WHY MUST I FOLLOW UR RHYTHM and not mine? u may not understand what im writing because i have this problem of making people understanding what im saying haih...-_-'

what im trying to say is that, you guys cant always follow ur style , we have to give and take? i follow u guys about something and u follow my style about something..

and one more thing, if ever u guys have disagreement about something and telling other people how selfish they are and all that, i think it goes the same way? try and think about what has happened and do think hard about it ....
i was really upset that day about what u guys said but i tried to fix things up but u guys wouldnt let me , u guys didnt give me a room to speak, u guys just stood there and when i apologized some raised their voice like nothing was happening and talked about something else, that was my final call for u guys....ive been through with u guys alot and i dont think i can take it anymore , i may not show my dislike towards uguys , YES u may call me a hipokrit and all the names related to it, but that's just my way ok...call me names but u should look urself in the mirror and ask this " am i a hipokrit too?" , u should not use your pretty face and innocence when u want something frm someone that u dont like and act like nothing happened, its just not right :) i do see that alot and its just very hurtful to watch ...

you may also say yang i ni cam jilat balik apa i ludah , but i think the thing that happened is also caused by certain things that not was entirely my fault...

most of the people i share my stories to, said that mybe all of this thing happened bacause of my attitude, so from now on i will change insyallah , and sorry for the things that ive done in the past and so on...

p/s: im writting this blog is not because i want to pick a fight but this is one of the places i express my feelings when im sad and even when im happy...:)