demanding me

hrmm ...maybe im the one who's being too selfish in this matter?i want things to go my way? all the time? im not trying to be demanding but .....urghhhhhh i hate this feeling , i want it to go away and act like nothing happened? maybe tomorrow ill be better :)...hopefully....

from 100 % to 85 %

finally after a month plus i think ? i havent seen zulfauzi zakiran , gosh the last time i saw him was first day of new year then that was it until 24th of January , hhehe maybe i lied about a month plus thingy but i do miss him alot. hehe this is the first time me and didnt meet up every week during his practical and unfortunately for me he is having  his practical in melaka hospital , so say bye bye to dates :) but luckily for me last week i got the chance to meet him . it was nearly off since i didnt have any transport to go and meet him back in KL. so i had to ask a few favours about renting a car from puncak to go meet him in KL , but luck was definitely on my side since ki could come and drive his car to meet me here, seronoknye , i waited for him since 2 pm till nearly 4 smthing , he got lost and it took him quiet awhile to get here. when he got here he said he wanted to meet his cousin , i dont know what was wrong with me that day but i was so furious about it , i felt like " why didnt he meet me first then later his cousin? " penting sgt ke nk jumpa? poor ki , when i came down from my room my face was furious , while his was full of joy , i felt bad but jealousy was all over me hehe i know i shouldnt be jealous with his cousin but my hormone wasnt right at that point of time , so sorry la ki :)
we went to the car , but otw he asked me what was wrong with me , i didnt answer him , and he made his sad face which was so sad cause how would you feel when  came all the way from seremban but when you see  your bf , he made faces as if he didnt want to see you ? kesian dia so i tak sampai hati dah n i explained , h laughed about it , it wasnt funny to me , SERIOUSLY  :(
anyway then we went to sunway pyramid to watch adnan sempit again for the 2nd time for me , it was a good movie , i can still laugh to the jokes the guy made even though i just watched the movie 3 days ago i think? but before we went to sunway , we had our lunch /dinner at a gerai , the tomyam was faboulous :) sedapgle hehe
then i gave him his 1 year 6 months anniversary gift , i know its quiet early but i was so excited about it hehe so i had to gave him , but was so sad was he lost the anniversary card when he was his way back to college :( sedihh k walaupun the card cost a dollar but my words in the card is priceless k hehehe
that night he spent the night in puncak alam , he slept at angsana 3 with the medlab boys and MI , kamal and halim was also there .
the next day he was suppose to send me to home , but otw home sha called and said mak asked me when was i coming back home? i said i was otw and she said , mak asked ki to join for lunch . Ki was so shocked he kept on giving excuses to not meet my grandma , ma n pa wasnt around since they went to korea , it was only mak kot , takkan takot kot der? ehehehe padan muka u , rase apa i rase when i came to your house heheh anyway mak had cooked alot of food for us to eat,ki finished almost most of the lauk hahaha which is a no suprise , he loves food , its like in his blood , zulfauzi zakiran = food ahahah but its ok no matter how fat your are i still love you zakiran , always hehehe

to zakiran :
thanks for coming to puncak and meet me here , from 100% missing you it has decrase to 85% which is a big help for me :) thanks for letting me sniff your shirt and make me remember how you used to smell and how you used to hug me and held my hand , thanks zakiran , i love you :) and happy 1 year 5 months anniversary yang

fill up the gap :)

it has been quiet awhile since iv spend time with sha since all of us were really busy with classes and she was busy with her work , so last night was one of the night to spend together without boyfriends and friends :) there werent much activity to be done since it was quiet late , so we could only watch midnight movie together , we watched adnan sempit , i know this sounds so rempit but u should definately watch this movie , its a cool movie and very funny , the jokes are acceptable gakla not boring :) but the crowd there were ...hrmm i dont know should have watch that movie midnight kot because the boys were all carzy , hormone semua dlm movie melonjak , they were excited for nothing . one of the guy sitting right at the back of me were laughing his heart out , forcing not naturally till everyone got really pissed . someone asked him to keep quiet but he was mad he said " sape cakap tu? kalu berani mengakula !" , apahal ni bro ? hahah are you here to watch movie or mking a scene to show your otainess? haihh...then the guy behind me keeps on shaking his leg making my chair like an osim chair. it wasnt comfortable , it gave me headaches, and top top up to that , the guy keeps on saying " wie korang tgk movie eh jgn nk buat wayang plak kat sini" ni what's wrong with him ? cant he just watch the movie like everybody else? annoying ass****.
anyway all i want to say is that its a really good movie and everyone should watch it , support your local movie hehe and shut up went you are in the movie k :)
p/s : rinduku padamu shasha sudah berkurangan hehehe we should hang more sometime , love you :)

hikhok nite out :)

went to ou with kak pipi , kak mas , kak dayah and ieka. journey from puncak to ou is so damn far , it took us one hour to arrive even though we took lots of shortcuts. in the car all of us were starving , so sampai je ou , we went to have our lunch? which was already 5 pm at the Garden restaurant.the shop was really nice , it made us feel like having lunch in the garden , i think that's why its called "the garden" hehe. anyway as we were about to enter the shop , there was a promotion written on a board saying " only 50 couples will be served , places are limited hurry !" . the sign was for valentine's day , so i was thinking to bring ki there for valentine's day , it was the perfect place to have a romantic dinner.its a fancy dinner with dress codes and all , that night they'll be serving baby lobsters and steaks . who wouldnt want to have a romantic dinner in that place with that kind of food? dengan excitednye i asked the man who took our order and asked him , he gladly gave me the pamphlet, OMG terbeliak bijik mata me n kak pipi , it was freaking rm400 , who would want to pay for a place like that , it wasnt a hotel so the price is too steep i guess? s sorry ki no romantic dinner with you for valentine :)

 

then after went shopping in ou which was very tiring cause everyone had different shops in their mind so the whole ou ditawafnye , from old wing to new wing , then from new wing back to the old wing , but we did have fun in ou , till the last minute, kak pipi wanted to get something jugak because she didint get anything forherself since everyone did , but unfortunately for her no luck for u :)

 

it was almost 1030 pm all of us till proceed to have dinner in rasta or ratsa im confuse with the name , cause ieka said i was a nice place to have dinner , so went there jugak even though all of us knew curfew was really near. as the clock starts to strike 11 something everyone's phone started ringing and bfs started texting , asking " when are you coming back ?" " suara jantan mana tu ?" ahahha or " sumpah xde lelaki?" haahha it was girl's night out of course the boys are concern.original plan was to meet in kampung kuantan and watch kelip2 or better known as fireflies but they couldnt come all of a sudden due to financial crisis :) ratsa's place was awesome they had arabic tents with floor cushions , it was very comfortable till the next table started to take small kisses to the next level. perghh leaning on the boy and started making the guy feel oh oh , bad choice girl , i think most people there are saying this inside their heart " get a room la !" . i really dont know what's making her feeling high cause im sure in the menu  they dont serve beers or anything like that , maybe its her hormone , maybe it has been quiet a long time since she had a boyfriend, poor her :)

all of us talked and seriously i didnt imagine will be hanging out with kak dayah , kak pipi and kak mas , cause they were like older than me and i dont feel like belong to that group. hehe . but it was a fun night, all of us opened up about everything and got really high with shisha :) it was the best night i've ever spent in my entire time UITM :) isnt that sad? hehe

 

then almost 3 am , all of us thought ti would be nice hanging out in KL watching people getting drunk by the roadside and all but there were not much action since it was a tuesday night so boringggggg tak ramai yang mabuk hahahah

then we planned to got to KL view which none of us know how to go there , until we went to bukit belacan which i've never even heard the place but made a uturn cause we didnt there to go there since it was so dark . the next day i got to know that kl view wasnt i bukit belacan it was in ampang :) haihhh.... then we went jalan2 till almost 4 and head back to shah alam and spent our dreamy night in the car.

moral of the story : i didnt know or expect that i would have a really cool night and had a really good time .thanks to all for making me feel welcome to the group since im still a newbie in the group. thank you :)

haihhhh

like what one of my lecturers said in one of his classes, all of us must  not be berpuak and try to be togther in everything. What he said has his points from my point of view because if we’re not toghether cam xsronok we wouldn’t feel the fun and happiness in U. we will be living our lives just this once and go through it one time only . why cant we just keep our bad heart away and try to be nice t everybody. i know im not a good person and I don’t even have the right to say this but im trying not show how much I dislike the person in front of her or him. I think its better for me to not look in his/ her face as im afraid I might show the hatred I have in me towards her/him . At least Im trying not to show it right even though some people might not agree with the way im handling things.i don’t mind at least im trying and not like some people who shows her hatred towards someone by making stupid remarks in front of everybody , don’t you think she is dropping that someone’s waterface? Boleyh x klau nk cakap “ are u dumb?”

scene 1:

si pandai : eh eh? Kenapa ____ tak duduk belakang?

Mereka : J

We ( me , limo , ted , nur qaseh ) were sitting at the back ,which used to be “mereka”s” place but beside us there were still spaces. But they moved to front and sat with missy. Of course they “mereka” didn’t make a scene about it , klau x mesti la gado but , si pandai sengaja nk spark up the situation and others   ( classmates ) were looking at us . kenapa kena si pandai buat camtu? I tak faham

Scene 2:

Si pandai: eh kiter duduk mana ?

3 stooges : oh? Kiter duduk sini kan ?

Si pandai : eh bukan kiter duduk sane ke? Eh tp jap dorang ( me , limo , ted, nur qaseh) duduk sini plak tp “mereka” duduk blakang plak?

Si pandai : eh kiter duduk sini la , silap la , susah la orang orang asyik tukar tempat jer .

Si pandai is again trying to make a scene about the sittings. What is her problem?just let it be la u don’t have to be someone’s defender la k? they can defend their ownself , and someone in the rightmind would not do what you’re doing , because they know the conclusion of it will be a fight between both parties. you’re just acting like that to show how good and saint you are..OMG but I think si pandai , your techniques are not working anymore since everyone knows the real you.words have spread .

And there were others scene but I don’t want to mention because that was quiet awhile ago , scenes above were quiet recent which happened two days in a row.Both of the scenes above shows her dumbness im sorry I have to say that because im so pissed with her . why do you have to say all those things? Macam sengaja nk mempecah belahkan orang.

I cant stand it anymore , so what I suggest to you is that , you keep your small lips shut and try not to spark any fights ok? Its better for you to watch out because most people are trying to find the right time to hit you and others down. I wouldn’t want that to happen because u and I are both girls. I wouldn’t want to see someone I used to know to go down the drain even though I don’t really like you that much and you have hurt me so much till I nearly lost my mind. So again im saying better shut up your mouth and not to pick on others.please realise this ok thank you.

p/s: im not saying all this to humiliate u in this blog because I have said to you indirectly and you still don’t get the message , so I have to say it here.